Hello there! I'm Karilyn Bradwisch. I am a 20 year old college student, married with no children, and dream of being a teacher. I would like for people to describe me as caring, funny, and hardworking, but in today's society people are judged by their looks. Strangers who see me for the first time may call me overweight, big, or even fat. Starting today I want to take charge of my life. I have always been left behind and the only person I can blame for this is myself. Today is a new day, and I am going to seize this opportunity and run with it. Doing a quick search, I found that I am in the 79th percentile for my weight for women my age and height. That means out of 100 women I am heavier than 79 of them. According to the WeightWatchers website my Body Mass Index(BMI) is 29. A BMI of 20-25 is healthy, a BMI of 26-29 is overweight, and a BMI of 30 or higher is obese. These are all numbers I want to change. I want to be happy in my own skin, I want to feel comfortable going to the mall with my friends, I want to be able to keep up with my friends, and I want to live a long and full life. I won’t get any of these things if I don’t make some changes in my life.
I have struggled with weight my whole life. In elementary and middle school I was overweight. I have never been mortally obese, but I have never been a healthy weight. I lost some weight in middle school when I joined a swim team, but when I didn't do well in my first race.....I sort of gave up(I'm quickly realizing this the story of my life). It was also getting more expensive to be on the team, but mostly I just quit because I wasn’t good at it. Something else I seem to do often. I also lost about 20 pounds in high school, but it was in an unhealthy way. I went through a break up and just didn't eat. I wasn't starving myself, I just wasn't hungry anymore. After I lost the 20 pounds, I slowly but steadily gained it back and more. I am now 180 pounds, a 45 pound increase from my smallest weight of 135 pounds. How did I get here? Again, I can only blame myself. I ate whatever I wanted and I was lazy. I stopped going to the gym, stopped being active, and I ate and ate and ate. I don't have an illness or an injury I can blame on all this. I need to start to take responsibility for these actions. I need to take responsibility for my life. I keep telling myself I want to lose weight, but it just hasn't happened. In college I started taking PE classes, but I didn't take advantage of them and I saw little to no weight loss. I tried to take the easy way out and bought some diet pills, Slimquick, designed for women. They made me jittery and unsettled so I stopped taking them after a day. I tried to be an ovatarian for awhile to eat more lean meats, but I quit that too. What can I say, I love the good steak just as much as the next person. But now I want to go about this the right way. I am going to start to eat a more healthy diet and I am going to start to be an active person.
In this blog I am going to journal my highs and lows, my gains and losses, and my activity and meals.
My Goals: Short and Long term
- To lose 45 pounds by February 2012.
- To be a fit and healthy person.
- To live a healthy lifestyle (not to diet my whole life).
- To run a mile without stopping to walk.
- To wear a size 5/7 again.
- To feel comfortable in my own skin.
How I will achieve these goals:
- Swimming and cardio at the gym 3-5 days a week.
- Eating out at restaurants only 1 time a month.
- Cutting down on the amount of sweets.
- Learning to make healthy and delicious meals for my family.
- Learning portion control.
Writing this blog I am facing embarrassment and ridicule, but I think of the positives outweigh the negatives. If I write this blog I will be taking my life in my own hands instead of sitting on the side lines envious of others and their bodies. I will be healthy and more confident, emotionally and physically fit. I can do this and I will do this. Well here goes nothing! Seize the day!
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